Sunday, May 28, 2017
Friday, May 26, 2017
I've been sick for so many days that I've lost track now of how many. I've missed work. I've stayed holed up in the house. I've watched lots of TV. I've taken medicine. I've been to Urgent Care. I've seen my doctor. I've had a couple breathing treatments. I've had a couple chest x-rays. I've had lab work done. Now I'm on my second round of stronger medicines to try and knock this out. I've tried to muscle through this. (If I can actually call it that?) I've tried doing nothing. The most I've left the house has been to sit on my front porch to warm up, go to the doctor or the pharmacy. I've stayed home. But it hasn't made much of a difference. I'm still miserable: sicker than sick most of the day and anxious with a twinge of cabin fever the rest.
It's 4:58 AM on Friday morning and I finally decided to get up since I couldn't sleep anyway. The hives are back and I have to wait another hour before I can take the medicine they gave me to help stop them and the itch. I'm on all kinds of new stuff after my last doctors visit. A stronger antibiotic. A new daily inhaler because we think I might be allergic to the additive in the previous inhaler. I'm also taking two new drugs specifically for the hives, and guess what? They make you drowsy. Here we go again. The doctor had lab work done, gave me another breathing treatment, and ordered another chest x-ray. He wants this new chest x-ray to be done next week so he can check for improvement. He was also questioning the original diagnosis. He said if this round of antibiotics doesn't improve things, then it could be the flu. We'll, I've taken exactly two doses of the new antibiotic and I'm feeling slightly better. Not a huge change, but enough to say, hmmm....this just might do the trick and knock this out of me finally. Let's just keep improving over the weekend. I don't want to whine, but I'm stating a few facts about this past few days. First of all, I can only remember a couple other times in my life being so sick. One was a similar pneumonia when I was about four years old. That time I also found myself a vacation at the most expensive hotel in town that I knew of at that age, our military hospital. The other experience was about two weeks after Kevin left the MTC for his mission in Oakland, California. I spent the better part of a week in bed and it was about two weeks before I could actually speak without coughing and hacking. This current experience hit me from completely out of the blue. One day I'm fine and the next I'm very sick. It came on fast! Needless to say, I'm learning that you do need to take care of yourself from time to time. But, doesn't my body know that the caretaker doesn't have time to be sick when it's care taking time? (Which happens every single day in one form or another) It's a lot harder to do when you can barely sit up for five minutes and you're the only one that can drive you to the doctor, especially when the boys are all at work. I also think not being able to drive is hard on Kevin right now too. He wants to help me, but he's limited to what he can do. Because of this, I have come to appreciate all the things he can do all the more now. Bless that man and his wonderful 💓, he has been Dad, my voice of reason, tried to play nurse, he would do it ALL if his body would let him, and I love him more and more just for having the desire to.
It's now noon and I do believe I'm finally taking a turn for better. My left side of my head and neck are improving, the right side,....not so much yet. I'm beginning to hear a change in my cough and it sounds like things might be breaking up. I'm also throwing up more phlegm which is good in my opinion. Better up and out. (sorry for that visual). The slight twinges of pain has decreased, no chills or sweats for a few hours and I are some real food yesterday for the first time. At least I'm sitting up. I'm not gasping for air. My ears don't feel like someones pulling them inside out and stretching them to the East Coast. I believe I'm on the mend! Happiness!
All things are for our good and give us experience...
- The nurse who checked my rash, initially, commented that it was the worst she'd ever seen. She got the PA to look and he said, "Oh my word!", agreeing. The doctor came in and said, "She needs to see Dr. Block.". He's the dermatologist and I guess I'll be seeing him as soon as I'm better.
- I don't know if they knew or not, but yesterday we received a nice visit from a member of the Elders Quorum and his family. His wife makes the most amazing truffles and they came by with a box full of them and a nice message. We talked briefly on the porch simply because I didn't want them coming inside since I've been so sick. I would prefer to not infect anyone else if possible. It's hard enough just being around my own family right now. Especially Kevin. Anyway, we had a brief visit and they left us with yummy treats and a smile on our face. As soon as I went back into the house Kevin had to have a truffle. Lexi, who knows all about them, had to have two. The rest are hidden in the fridge for when I'm feeling up to eating again. Wink wink. (I guess I'd better hurry! Looks like the family has eaten all of the truffles but two).
- We received two surprise visits from the UPS man yesterday and today. We got a huge double box of Cheryl's Cookies. Then today we received two double boxes from The Popcorn Factory. All were gifts from our Aunt's, Yvonne and Patsy. We are planning to make a visit to see them just as soon as I'm better and Kevin's up for it too.
- I've had a plethora of emails, cards, text messages, and phone calls from all kinds of friends and family alike. Thank you all for your good thoughts and prayers.
- My friend Bev and my Mom both offered to drop yummy things off to us or anything for that matter.
- On the lighter side, nothing solid to eat since last Thursday until dinner last night. I'm certain to have lost a few extra pounds this week. Pneumonia.....not the diet I"d recommend but it's made a difference, I'm certain!
- Lexi was asked by an old friend to take some photos for her Senior announcements last week. They went to the temple grounds and oh my! The photos were beautiful! I can't get over how good Lexi is getting! Now I want a family photo more than ever, especially in some of the spots they used. Loved them! Now to figure out how to lose a ton of weight between now and then. LOL! I'm working on that, right??
Here's a recipe I'm anxious to try.......
2 lbs ground turkey or shredded chicken. ( You can use a roasted chicken from the store)
1 medium onion, minced
Salt and pepper, a dash of each
4 large cloves garlic, minced
2 inch job fresh ginger, peeled and minced
2 Tablespoons sesame oil
5 Tablespoons soy sauce
1 Tablespoon water
2 Tablespoons natural peanut butter
1 Tablespoon honey
2 Tablespoons + 2 teaspoons rice vinegar
2 teaspoons chili garlic sauce
Dash fresh pepper
6 green onions, chopped
1 - 8 oz. Can sliced water chestnuts, drained and chopped, if desired
1 cup shredded carrots
1/2 cup peanuts, chopped
Curly or romaine lettuce leaves, rinsed and patted dry
Heat a large non-stick skillet on high. Add chicken, salt, pepper, and cook until chicken is nearly done, stirring often to break up the meat. Add in minced garlic and ginger, and continue cooking until chicken is no longer pink. Meanwhile, in a microwave safe bowl, combine sesame oil, soy sauce, water, peanut butter, honey, rice vinegar, chili garlic sauce, and pepper. Microwave for one minute, then stir until smooth. Add into the skillet and stir to combine. Add green onion, water chestnuts, shredded carrots into the skillet then cook for 1-2 minutes until the onions are soft and the water chestnuts are heated through. Sprinkle with chopped peanuts, and serve with cold lettuce leaves. You can also serve these with rice. Enjoy!!
1/4 cup sugar
1/2 cup water
2 Tablespoons soy sauce
2 Tablespoons rice wine vinegar
2 Tablespoons ketchup
1 Tablespoon lemon juice
1/8 teaspoon sesame oil
1 Tablespoon hot mustard
2 teaspoons water
1-2 teaspoons garlic and red chili paste
It's taken me hours...no days, but, I felt good enough to get up and down to type in bits and pieces. It's now 8:30 PM. That's improvement. I'm grateful for that. I'm off to find a movie on Netflix, Hulu, or Amazon to get comfy and lie down and watch. Who knows maybe I'll have to watch it twice because I doze off. I'm okay with that. Take care my friends and we will talk again soon.
Wednesday, May 24, 2017
Seriously. I'm trying to find the humor here. You know the old comic strip that shows the epitaph on the tombstone that says, "I told you I was sick!" ?? Well, that's how I'm starting to feel. Like these words will someday be on my tombstone. Not a pleasant thought for sure! All weekend, and since last Thursday, I've been in pain, weak, dizzy, coughing, and a whole lot more I don't care to talk about. I went to Urgent Care on Friday, I knew I'd never get in to see my PCP that day, and they did a chest x-ray, gave me a breathing treatment, sent me home with two prescriptions, and told me to get to the ER ASAP if it got worse. Most of the weekend, every time I sat up, it would hurt and I would get dizzy and I was concerned. Then last night, at about 8:00, I was resting and shifting from one side of the couch to the other when it got terribly bad, so I put on my warm sweater and wrapped up in my warmest blanket and went back to lie down again. I was freezing cold. That calmed it a bit and then it got worse again....much worse. This progressed for the better part of about two hours and I started having chills, hot flashes, and I was super dizzy again, to the point of tears, and I knew that something was wrong. I tried different position, nothing seemed to matter. My boys were both gone to a youth activity so there was no one here to drive me. Kevin said he'd get me a ride and I knew exactly what he meant by that comment. He meant he'd call 911 for me. I wasn't amused, but I did appreciate Kevin's concern.
As soon as Kevin said that I fell asleep for what seemed like hours, but was actually a matter of a few minutes, literally. I might of actually passed out but no one really knows for sure since I I was the only one in the room at the time. After two hours of freezing last night I was finally able to settle down and able to sleep. I woke up a couple of times in the middle of the night to run for the bathroom. Each time I had to change clothes completely. There's nothing like going through all your under garments, t-shirts, and yoga pants all in one day. I've been doing the same thing again today. The good news is that I know eventually I will be just fine. Another words, this will go away eventually. I'm certain of that. Thankfully.
This morning I got a call from my boss reminding me to call the 3rd party administrator that takes care of me when I have to be out sick like this. I called them this afternoon. When I was talking to them I explained that I was bummed that I had to call them again because I just went back to work after being out sick the last time. I'm beginning to think I have the absolute worst luck possible this year. I have another appointment, this time with my doctor. I thought I was done seeing them for a while as well. I've taken all the meds Urgent Care gave me to help with this healing. It's been explained to me as of yesterday that in four or five more days, I'll feel much better and be on the mend. I'm not amused. Four or five more days??!!! However, I'm grateful that I've gotten to the bottom of the problem. I knew that something was not right. I'd said that to my family several times. But, I couldn't put my finger on what it was. Now, we know. Pneumonia! How does anyone get that in 90 degree weather is beyond me. It completely crazy! In fact, I remember a co-worker telling me her doctor was warning her to take care of herself so she didn't end up with it about a week before I got sick. I never dreamed I'd end up with it! Frankly, I do not like this and they can take it back. I will say this.....I'm more thankful than words could say that I was smart and got myself into Urgent Care on Friday. I knew something wasn't right and I needed help with this one for sure. Urgent Care was my only option that day because my doctor's office has a shortened work day on Fridays and I knew I wouldn't be able to get in to see them. I'm willing to do whatever it takes to put this experience to rest for good. And while I'm not laughing, I am repeating this to myself, "This too shall pass. This too shall pass. This too shall pass."
I've quoted this scripture many times. "All these things shall give thee experience and shall be for thy good." I'm looking for the good. I'm considering this experience. I know that I will look back at this someday, with a smile, and say, "Can you believe it?" And I'll be thankful for the lessons learned. Whatever they may be. For now, I'm just going to do all I can to keep from crying.
In other news.....
- Kyle had a birthday on Monday. He had an action packed day starting off with taking his Dad to St. Joseph's Hospital for another MRI. This one was with sedation. That's the only way they can get Kevin to lay flat anymore. I gave Curtis my debit card so he could go out and purchase a present for his older brother and pick up a cake and dinner. Whatever Curtis picked out as a present was a huge hit because Kyle loved it! (I was a bit out of it, but I do remember hearing the word awesome from Kyle that night.). That evening Kyle went with his brother to a YSA activity. Actually to a couple YSA activities in fact. We got pizza for dinner and cheesecake for dessert. The cheesecake wasn't even touched until after eleven that night when the boys got home. Danielle stopped in for a minute to drop off her present for her brother. Kyle has a thing for crazy socks so Danielle got him all kinds of them. Kyle loved them! Kyle's Grandparents sent him a nice card with a little "surprise" inside. Who doesn't love that? All in all, Kyle had a great day. Even if we didn't have a proper party, and it was all very last minute, and I had to use a proxy to do all the shopping for me. (Thank you Curtis!)
- Lexi took another two tests yesterday. My Mom ran her to and from the testing center. Lexi was stressing out on Sunday night about missing out on the kind of graduation her friends are having. I had to remind her that everything was going to be fine and she could celebrate with her friends. I also reminded her that we could have a big graduation party for her too, but she doesn't want that. Anyway, after Lexi calmed down and told me she was really worried about not passing these two tests, I told her to go talk to her Dad and ask him for a blessing and she did. I told her everything was going to be fine. She calmed down. Talked to her Dad and they agreed she needed a blessing and that she would get one the next morning. (Kevin was still in a lot of pain after his MRI). Well, Lexi got home from her tests and she knew she pasted the shorter one, but she was still waiting for the results of the larger one. She actually only missed one on the smaller test. The larger one she scored quite high on it as well. Go Lexi!! And she was worried! Now she just has two more to go. While she was at the testing center she was approached by the test center manager who informed her of a scholarship she would qualify for. It wasn't a huge one, but every little bit helps, right?! So as soon as Lexi is done and graduated she will start filling out paperwork for college. Her and Curtis will get to be Freshman together. I kind of like that idea.
- Curtis is still loving his job. This week he isn't working with his buddy because his buddy is off in Hawaii. So, Curtis has been working with another guy. Today Curtis will spend part of the day on his own and will hopefully get his own truck very soon. He's excited for that. I have to admit, it's gonna be weird having his work truck parked out front all the time when that happens. I'm use to seeing those kinds of trucks parked across the street at our neighbors house. I'm gonna have to get used to a Metro Fire truck on this side of the street from now on. I'm sure it won't be that difficult. We'll just have to make a little room on the driveway. -smile-smile-
It's Wednesday and I can actually sit up and I don't feel dizzy. That huge!! I'm grateful for that. Let's hope things keep improving. I'd like to get back to work ASAP! I'm tired of being sick. Don't worry, I'm still trying to see the good here. I can't help it though. I'm ready to be done with all of this. I'm tired of looking at the inside of my house. If you know what I mean?
I should go. Take care and we will talk again soon.
Saturday, May 20, 2017
- Tomato soup tastes so good right now for this sicky.
- I've decided to move this chalkboard into the family room. (Some day.)
- Sleep is good.
- Dirty laundry is like bunny rabbits....highly prolific.
- I want to clean, dejunk, cook. I'll probably just sleep.
- Kyle has a birthday Monday. Will I be better by then?
- Curtis will help me with Kyle's present...the shopping part.
- Waiting for grass to grow takes forever!
- 20 pounds of seed, that should spark something, right?
- I'm tired, time to go nap again.
Well, that's about it for me. I've spent 90% of my day today sleeping. I tried to pick up a bit around the house but didn't get far before I had to sit before I passed out. So, no more of that for me. Take care my friends and we will talk again soon.
Friday, May 19, 2017
Thursday, May 18, 2017
Take care my friends and we will talk again soon.
Tuesday, May 16, 2017
For several months now I have been using Kyle's portable speaker to listen to be able to hear movies on Netflix or Hulu because I think I blew out the speakers on my notebook. Kyle was kind enough to let me use his all this time, but it was time I had my own. Besides, his wasn't loud enough for me. I think I might be losing a little hearing, just so you know. LOL! Well, my kids got me this portable speaker and I absolutely LOVE it!! It's super loud and I can't wait to try it out sometime when we are out in the pool this summer.
I also got the one thing I actually requested. I've been wanting a pair of grey Chuck Taylor's to wear with jeans. Well, I have a "fitting" with our local Famous Footwear in the next couple of days to make sure I will get the right size for me. Then I told my kids to order them online from, you guest it.....AMAZON!! I found then for $24 and I can have them delivered to my door within a couple of days. I can't wait to get them and wear them. Yay!
Then, do you remember me telling you all about how Chance's (my son-in-law) Mom had requested a letter from him that basically told her what a wonderful mother she was, and then she gave him detailed information that she expected him to include in the letter. Well, do you also remember me saying that I didn't think it was the kind of thing that should be solicited from your kids if you really wanted it to come from the heart and truly mean something. I'm sorry. I just don't understand. I would NEVER place those kinds of expectations on my children. EVER! So when my daughter told me about her mother-in-laws demand I couldn't help but think that the only reason she wanted the letter was so she could have it for bragging rights. Nothing more. ANYWAY. To each his own. Long story short. I got a very nice letter from my daughter that not only included reasons why she appreciates me, but it included a little bit of her testimony. I will not share the entire letter because I feel it is a very personal and intimate letter. Not meant to be shared with the world, but meant to be cherished and preserved so I can look back on it from time to time. Below is a photo of the letter and the pretty card it came with. I know I am not the "perfect" mother, but in spite of all of that, the one thing I am most proud of has been being able to influence and help build and strengthen each of my children's testimonies. Sometimes through example, sometimes through discipline, and sometimes through the sharing of my own testimony. That to me means more than anything else I have tried to share with my children over the years. As I type this this scripture keeps coming to my mind.....3 John 1:4 "I have no greater joy than to hear that my children walk in truth." What a blessing it is indeed!!!
Then today I treated myself to this lovely wreath. I've been searching high and low for the right wreath to hang on my door through the summer. I had found one that I absolutely LOVED online, but after I placed my order the company returned my money because they were out of stock. I was so bummed. The wreath was so unique and pretty. I was so looking forward to it. Since the cancelled order I've gone back several times to the website in the hopes that they would get more in stock. It's been a month and nothing. I'm so sad. Anyway, someone was selling this wreath that is filled with flowers made from wood shavings. It's one I've seen before and I liked it. So, when this person was selling it for well below the normal retail price I jumped at the chance to get it. (I love a good bargain!) So, now this wreath is hanging on my front door.
I did a quick sweeping and clearing off of my front porch so I could make room for my sign post. I attached something to the back of the sign so it could hang from the sign post and it's now on the porch right next to the front door. I would have posted a photo of the sign post and my wreath, but by the time I was done watering the lawn and pulling a few weeds on the side of the yard it was to dark to take the pictures. Maybe tomorrow though. That is, if I remember.
These past couple of weeks have caused me to spend a lot of time in deep thought and prayer over a few things that have had me worried and a bit stressed. In fact, I found myself sitting in my doctor's office praying to my Heavenly Father with both eyes open as I waited for my name to be called last week. I'm sure anyone looking at me could tell I was in deep thought and I just might have mouthed a few words to myself as if to seem as though I was talking to myself. I'm sure I must have looked ridiculous, but I don't care. In those moments personal covenants were made with my Heavenly Father. I made a promise with Him and He promised to keep up his end of the promise as well. The only one that can break this type of promise is me. That is the wonderful thing about a loving Heavenly Father. Once He agrees to do something He is all in and will never go back on his word. Isn't that awesome? So, as long as I continue to keep up my end of the agreement then I have nothing to lose and EVERYTHING to gain. I cannot tell you how wonderful it is to know that I am entitled to receive answers in the form of personal revelation anytime, even in a busy doctor's office. I am so grateful that I was able to hear and receive the answers I needed. And they were received in the most amazing ways. Over and over again. In fact, I never would have believed it unless I had not saw it with my own eyes! Honestly.....right there in my doctor's office. I feel so very blessed and humbled. I love my Heavenly Father more and more each day.
Several years ago we lived in another stake that had just gone through a boundary change and a new stake presidency was called. Well, at one stake meeting our stake president shared a story that I will never forget. He said he had been in his car praying to his Heavenly Father while driving. He said he was speaking out loud as he prayed and he realized when he pulled up to a stop light that people in the cars around him might think he was a complete crazy person, so he pulled out his cell phone and put it up to his ear so he didn't look crazy. He said he kept on praying to his Heavenly Father and didn't miss a beat. Then when he was done praying he put the phone down. Talk about a long distance call. ~smile~smile~
Well, I should get going. Take care and we will talk again soon.