Monday, July 11, 2016

It just keeps getting....

Here are a few questions for you....

1.  Do you find yourself influencing your world, or is it more the other way around?

This is quite a loaded question.  Especially for me right now.  I can honestly say, I've recently been made aware, in a very real way, exactly how my husband and I have been an influence to our children.....and not exactly in the way I personally had hoped.  In fact, having my children tell me EXACTLY what they think and EXACTLY how they feel has been nothing short of agonizing and gut-wrenching.  It's been an interesting couple of weeks.  I've learned a lot, even if I would have preferred NOT to learn some of these things.  I knew my husband's health issues had been an issue, but I had no idea my children felt stuck or wanted to run like the wind and never look back.  Frankly, I don't blame them, and I knew this is hard on them, but actually hearing those words come out of their mouths hurts.  It hurts because, honestly, I feel exactly the same way they do, BUT, I am clinging, holding on for dear life if you will, to temple covenants with every bit of strength I've got!  No joke!  I want that more than anything.  It isn't easy holding on when I am the one literally holding EVERYTHING together.  I'm the one who deals with any and all issues, as well as the one that has become everyone's emotional punching bag.  That piece of this has been very difficult!  If I didn't know better, I might think the best way I could help my family would be to pray that my Heavenly Father call me home so they could receive my life insurance (I know that's probably more than you wanted to know), BUT, I know that would not be something I should ask for.  Believe me, I do know better.  No need for anyone to freak out over my statement and start an intervention.  I'm merely letting you know how I'm feeling.  This is just a lot to go through, and I'm not even the one suffering from the SCI.  Can you imagine how my husband must feel watching me go through all of this?  It's just rough all around.  I will say this, I know these feelings will eventually disappear and I know things will get better.  That thought keeps me going.  So it's not all gloom and doom 24/7.  I promise.  Just once in a while I have a moment.  Know what I mean??!!!

So, YES, In a very big way and a real way, I do think we all influence each other, for good or bad, right or wrong, in our own little corners of the world.  As I mentioned before, I certainly influence my husband and children, just as they influence me as well.  Personally, I think if everyone concentrated on living and leading and also learning from the people closest to them the world would become a much better place!  Somehow I think we've gotten to caught up in making sure our voice is heard in some larger arena, that our opinions are noted and scored as right, when what we really need to be doing is loving the people closest to us every single day.  I am certain that if we took better care of our small circles of influence the world would improve too.

 There you have it and that is what I'm trying to do.  Could I do a better job?  Of course I can, even though I do feel overwhelmed.  There is always a way to improve.  Work smarter not harder.  ~smile~smile~smile~


2. July 14th is National Tape Measure Day...the device was patented on this date in 1868. When did you last use a tape measure? Do you always know where to find one in your house? Tell us one way in which you feel blessed 'beyond measure'.

The last time I used a tape measure was when we were setting up for my daughter's wedding reception.  We were trying to do something different with the lights and needed to measure the to find the center of the room.  Since that day, I can only guess where my tape measure is right now.  My guess is that it's in my tin full of tools.

In spite of everything mentioned above, I do feel incredibly blessed beyond measure because of the knowledge that I have, my family, and all that I have been given. AND....I am most grateful that so far through this whole medical/health issue of my husband's, we have not had to move in with family.  That is an INCREDIBLE blessing!  Let me be clear here...we have lived with family a couple of times throughout our married life for never more than about 10 months each time.  It was an incredible inconvenience on our family for taking us in, but they did it because they cared about us and, wanted to help.  None-the-less, I don't think any of us EVER want to have to do that again.  It's never an easy situation.

3.  The Plaza Hotel (Eloise), The Land of Oz (The Wizard of Oz), Narnia (The Chronicles of Narnia), The Hundred Acre Wood (Winnie the Pooh), Wonderland (Alice's Adventures in Wonderland), or Never Never Land (Peter Pan)...which storybook land (on this list!) would you most like to visit and why?

Oooh!....I would have to say The Hundred Acre Wood.  I love the beauty found in nature, and the wisdom and insight of Winnie the Pooh and Company.  Plus, The Hundred Acre Wood seems like the perfect, peaceful place to take a little break from the chaos, anger, name calling, and political rhetoric we're confronted with on a regular basis. 

4. Where and when do you get your best ideas?

It depends on the day.  Sometimes during the day while on break or lunch at work.  Sometimes late at night when I'm at home.  AND sometimes early in the morning at home on the weekends too. If it's at work, it's usually when I'm relaxing in one of the arm chairs in the break room,  and if it's at home it's usually when I'm in my living room.

5. So what have you been watching on TV this summer? Anything good?

NOTHING!  I cannot wait for the fall season to start.  There isn't anything good on TV lately.  So, I use to spend my time watching something on Netflix.  My husband, of course, watched the Olympic trials.

6. 'Don't swim for an hour after you eat', 'Dog days of summer', 'Knee high by the fourth of July'...choose a summer saying from the list or share one of your own, then tell us what image or memory comes to mind when you hear it spoken

Mine was and has been, Don't go outside without shoes, or you'll burn your feet.  I have visions of me as a little girl running across the streets as fast as I could, in our neighborhood here in Arizona, without shoes on.  I never burnt the bottoms of my feet then.  I did manage to see someone who did burn their foot quite badly at the hospital once when I was little, but it wasn't from the sun.  His leg must of caught on fire.  Today I couldn't get very far without shoes on in the summer.  My feet are more tender now and the hot sidewalk burns to much.  When I was little I was running across paved streets without shoes.  That was even hotter.

7. In a single sentence, sum up one life lesson you've learned.

Life NEVER turns out the way you expect it to, even in the best of circumstances.  

Also, 

Prayer changes things.  Most of the time that "thing" is me.  Funny how that works sometimes, but let's face it, Heavenly Father is not a magician who waves a magic wand granting our every wish.  We all have our free agency and have to come unto him to ask.  

8. Insert your own random thought here.

Lots of my To-Do list for this week has dwindled down.  I still need to get Kevin scheduled for another appointment with a pain specialist.  He is out of his meds and has been this entire time we have been without our car.  Kevin doesn't want to make Kyle drive me to work, then drive Danielle to work, then Kevin to and from the doctor, and then to pick me up. Then to have me to get Danielle about 1/2 after I get home.  He has been in chronic pain this whole time waiting.  The man can be stubborn sometimes.  

Lexi is off to tube down the Salt River tonight with our ward.  It's an annual thing they do with the youth every year.  I hope she has fun.  

We received a letter from our missionary today.  He is LOVING his new area.  Here is that letter.  

Hey Everyone,

This week was great!  My new companions name is Elder Gxxxxxx.  He's from Houston, Texas.  He really wants to use his time to make the most of his mission.  

Manhattan is so much fun!  We went through Central Park yesterday to do some street contacting and we have run into so many members from other areas, or from other wards.  We cover the entire island of Manhattan, which is so cool.  We can basically go wherever we want.  It really makes me feel trusted because this area is just so unique in the demographic and area that we have.   
We are assigned to a mid-single adult branch.  So, that means people 30 and up, and it's a fairly new Ward.  

Today we're gonna go visit some places hopefully.  I just want Elder Gxxxxxx to really love the area he is serving in and enjoy the work.  This transfer cycle is going to only be 5 weeks long, which is weird and the next one will be 7 weeks.  I could only be with Elder Gxxxxxx for 5 weeks and get transferred just like Elder Sorenson did when he training me.  Lol.
Speaking of Elder Sorenson....him, Elder Holtom, and Elder Judd went home this transfer, and Elder Larkin goes home after this next transfer.  All my companions and missionaries I have known are leaving me here all alone.  Ha ha!  It's kinda crazy.  

Well, I have to go now.  Other Elders and I are going to go cook lunch for our trainees.

Love,

Elder Schmidt
Sent from my iPad
 
We should have a few photos of Curtis and his new companion soon.  I'm excited for that, and possibly even a letter from his mission president with word about his new calling too.  Time will tell.  If we get both or some of this, I'll post it all.  More to come.

I received instructions for my new calling the other day.  I've been called as a Visiting Teaching Supervisor.  It's not a big calling and shouldn't require a lot of work on my part, which is probably best with everything else in my life right now.  
I'm trying to figure it all out right now.  It will take a bit for me to get it all worked out and things.  Especially without the Internet right now.  I'll get there, eventually.  

Lexi hasn't been doing her online class this cycle.  She should start online classes in the fall, but I'm not sure she will be able to.  Time will tell.  I called Mt View, she can't get in there because there is a waiting list of 80 students ahead of her waiting to get in.  So, we will see what happens there.  She flat out refuses to go back to Mesa High.  Refuses!!  If she can't go to Mt View and she won't go to Mesa, I don't know what we're going to do, but we need to decide quickly.

Well, it's been quite the day.  Take care my friends and we will talk again soon. 

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